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Mon, 17 Oct 2005 08:40:00 GMT

Mon, 17 Oct 2005 08:37:33 GMT

mi poemS

Sat, 15 Oct 2005 07:36:01 GMT

he guys theses are some poems i wrote a wile ago so yeh hope u lyk em aye:

wat did i do?
help 4giv and never 4get
givin within ur pain
and you think im insane
im inicent
cant you see?
help me clear my name
and ill let you be!

standing in the clear
darkness fills with pain
knowing never to hear
head full of shame
done nothing wrong
or write in her life
people treat her different
knowingto see the light!

silver lining fills the frame
broken glass stains the ground
red ribbins on your shoulders
as you fall down and cry
fading excistance
from the sky you fall
so far we make it back
we seem to forget it all
lerking in tha distance
running away from yourself
something to hide deep inside
its burning up there in the light

seeing in the darkness out of the cold
someing is creeping round memories untold
wats there to cover you?
wet to the bone
crestfallen

breathing undercovers
can u see wats inside?
sheets of black cover your eyes
shutting out all the lies
can u judge the pledge you make
but slowly begin to brake
untill something happens
who do you blame?
dark room in the corner
she lies alone.

this next note or poem that i wrote i called mi angry note:

i want them to know wat ive been through
i want them 2 think wat i think
i want them 2 feel wat i feel wat i feel
to go through the same pain i felt wen they stabbed me in the back.
we used to be close,
shared secrets
lived life happily
WHAT HAPPENED????????

i dont want to feel this way!
2 be depressed everydayof my life
i have already wasted mi past childhood
wat have a got now?you laughing a me? u cridisizing me?
teasing me 4 NO FUCKING REASON!!!!!!!!!
all i have ever done is be nice to you , fuck you , you whore, u can stick all mi fuckin niceness up ur fat fucking horse ass, and i dont give a fat flying fuck about wat you say!!!!!
and u know wat else?and if u wanna bash me go ahead because their is no point hiding it im not going to fight back so go right ahead you peice of shit, DO UR BEST!!!
yeh so u can see i have alot of anger oh yeh and is anybody out their from mi skool wants to bash me and has anything again go right ahead! lol have a nice day everyone i hoped you liked mi stuff so yeh dont 4get to leave a comment!

bored out of mi ass!

Wed, 14 Sep 2005 09:54:44 GMT

hey,
im bored so yeh u can read this its just how i feel (if u care).
right today at skool it was mi friends bday and i feel really bad for her because for everyone else's bday all of our group would chip in money and bye them a cake but today no one did it so i brought it for her coz i was the"only" one with money (bull shit) and yeh i spent all the money i had for the week and spent it on her and no one even thanked me ofr it or anything so i got really pissed well not really coz i mean it was her birthday and stuff so that was good, but then as soon as they noticed they were all lyk or ami i will pay you back and i NO for sure that none of them will!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and it really pisses me off coz that was really slack wat they did to her and i even think she new deep down but she just dident bother to tell!!!!!!!
I got really proud of myself couse i havent been depressed for lyk ages and stuff so i was full lyk happy and stuff and now coz they did that i made me memba lyk in primary skool and stuff and im lyk depressed now n i really dont want to !!!!!!!! and its really pissing me off!
coz really dont wanna be depressed coz its wasting my life!!!! and i wanna live it to the best and stuff coz u only get one chance to be young! so do wat ya wanna do!!!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 08:14:05 GMT

You scored as Metal.

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Punk

67%

Metal

67%

Rock N ROll

67%

EMo

What are you reely??(EMO<PUNK<ROCK<METAL)
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Sun, 31 Jul 2005 07:58:19 GMT

You scored as Underoath. underoath is a crazy hardcore band...mosh is their middle name! so scream!

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Underoath

83%

Rilo Kiley

38%

Rilo Kily

38%

Tegan and Sara

33%

Mates of State

33%

Le tigre

25%

Bright eyes

21%

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Sun, 31 Jul 2005 07:39:04 GMT

You scored as Just a Little Emo. Everybody has a little emo in them! You do too! Life is good.

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Just a Little Emo

55%

Emo and Proud

20%

Wannabe Emo

20%

Emo in Denial

20%

The EMO Test
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~bitch bout tess~

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 09:19:20 GMT

TES$:
*In primary school when i first meet you, you were nice to me (sorda), when i got to know you more you got more and more bitchy(alot),by the end of year 6 ive had about 4 to 5 years of plain mean and bitchyness.I had had enough, but i never told anyone about how you just used to talk about me behind my back and tell me off in front of my face and how i used to hide in the toilets all day because i dident want to show my face!, and when we were walking home from shool you would walk faster to try to get away from me or even when i was talking you used to stop me and tell me how i never understood what i was talking about and tell me off for saying big words when i dont understand them!!!!!!!

*We went to the same dance school and had been dancing together for ages when high school came along, our mums were also friends for ages and are still friends today, and they thought it would be good to try out for the same performing arts school together(and we did),and we even got in!, but the only reason i went to wollongong was that i thought that tess would be alone (what a good friend i was to her even though she did all that stuff to me),so i went to wollongong high and to this day i still do:(. geez the stuff that gos on at that school is really bad and this stuff has been going on for ages!!!!!!(and hardly anyone knows just how bad it really is ).Anyway back tp the story,......in year 7 (early)it was going ok but for some reason i had no friends in my dance class and for all the group things i was eather picked last or got a 0 for mi assignment because they thought i was not partisipating withing the class (but really i was being teased by all the other girls , they were saying how much of a crap dancer i was and how i was over weight and stuff like that ), by year 8 i was depressed and never wanted to go to school, everyday that went past felt like 1 thousend knifes stabbing me i the back and towards the end of year 8 there was a girl who had continually harrased me for all the time i was there and one day on the train after school, she was saying things to my face like how ugly i was and how i hav no friends and what hurt the most is that i realised that she was right but i was in dinyle then,and i had had enough so i just spilt and started hitting her and screaming at her, and tess being friends wid both of us(not really me)tryed to stop us and got infront of me and tryed to get me to stop but i dident!!!(i knew for sure that i DIDENT give them any bruses or anything, because i dident even hit them that hard,and i even missed them most of the time).The next day a school it got MUCH wurse, i got to school and by lunch time everyone in the school had me pinned up against the wall tell me off and calling me names, and it was at that time that i realised that i REALLY had NO friends and i made myself belive that!.At that time i was on the phone to my mum and was saying "mum come and pick me up i want to get away please help me get away" but she just said hang in there its not that bad it will all blow over soon, but she had NO idea just how bad it was you could hear everyone screaming in the back ground but she still dident come and get me she just sat there and gave me BAD advice!.

*now in year 9 i have learnt to cope with all the shit that gos on in this high school, but sometimes i will hav to snap!, like earlyer this year tess took me to counceling, (dont ask me why???@#&*) and she said to me that i gave her evils and i make her feel unhappy and how i copy her all the timeI FUCKING DONT COPY HER ALL THE TIME AND I DONT GIVE HER EVINS I DONT EVEN SIT NEAR HER AND I DONT LOOK AT HER OR ANYTHING AND I DONT EVEN BITCH ABOUT HER TO MY FRIENDS EVEN ASK THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!and i thought counceling was suspost to be confedeial but obveusly not because she told all her friends and they spead it round the whole school that i try to be like tessa!!!FUCK OFF!!!AS IF I DO!!!!!In class i over heard the most annyoing, obnoxus, bitchyest, uglyest, upherslef girl in my class(tessa 's friend)talking about how i went to counceling with tess and how i dobed her in!!:@GGRRRRR(wrong move to make) i turned around and threw a text book right at her and hit her and then i ran out of class and went to the toilet , in the toilet i threw myself up against the wall tha started screaming and throwing things around(chair), till a girl in my class came down to see how i was(nice girl she is)and told her about all of this, and we started walking back outside (i wasent going back to class)and then everyone decided it would be funny to come down and look at how i was chucking a syco(well yeh i was but it doesent give them the right to come down and spy on me like im a fucking freak show or something),and by then i had about 4 friends around me and 5 of them from my class came down and i started yelling at them telling them how i was NOT A FREAK SHOW AND I WASENT ON DISPLAY AT A MUSEUM!!!!!!, b4 they had come down my friend had found a knife on the ground but the nice girl that came down to see how i was said dont show her that, so she threw it away, but as they walked past i ran and picked up the knife and without looking i threw it with all might might wishing it would hit someone!(but it dident, but it camre really close).

*Everysince then i hav HATED them and i hav NEVA talked to tessa or her little skanky friends or anyone that assosiates with them i stay WAY AWAY from all of them never to speak of them again!!!!
i find my life is going alittle betta now that i never talk to or see any of them again.

oh and by the way here are some ways that me and tess are different:
ami-
*I lyk metal music and emily the strange and black and i HATE hip hop and gansta

tess-
*She lyks gansta and hiphop and she is obsested with girly things lyk lIPpgloss and makeup and pink! and usher and stuff lyk that!

ARE WE FUCKING THE SAME??????????.................NO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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about jono....

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 09:19:24 GMT

ok there is this guy i meet at music camp and well yeh i really like him,

an there is only one problem....he lives lyk 2 hours away and i dont want to put miself in that pocition

so yeh if you hav any ideas on how to help pls leave a comment .....

thanx

-xoxo-ami-xoxo-

atreyu

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 07:47:15 GMT

If I gave you pretty enough words
Could you paint a picture of us that works
An emphasis on function rather than design
Aren't you tired cause I will carry you, on a broken back
And blown out knees, I have been where you are for a while

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All the stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die

I am exhumed
Just a little less human, and alot more bitter and cold (x4)

After all these images of pain
Have cut right through you
I will kiss every scar
And weep you are not alone
Then I'll show you that place
In my chest where my heart
Still tries to beat, It still tries to beat.

Aren't you tired of being weak?
Such rage that you could scream
All stars right out of the sky
And destroy the prettiest starry night
Every evening that I die

Live
Love
Burn
Die

about jono....

Wed, 13 Jul 2005 10:11:39 GMT

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 05:05:50 GMT

You scored as Labret Piercing. You probably intimidate a whole lot of people without really meaning too. If people could just get past the many tattoos, piercings, and sideburns I'm sure they'd love you. Or still be scared, who knows.

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Cartilage Piercing

80%

Labret Piercing

80%

Lip Piercing

70%

Nipples

70%

Dirty Piercings

60%

Tongue Piercing

50%

Earlobe Piercing

40%

Nose Piercing

40%

Belly Button Piercing

30%

What Piercing Are You?
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Fri, 08 Jul 2005 04:03:41 GMT

is it that we dont get all the stuff we say?
or is it that we cant see wats past the end of our noses?
they say seeing is beleving,
but whats the truth about the world?

one day your there,
and another your not
disappearing from from the world
and never coming back

with one cut your life is gone
over, no longer living

with one strip
you feel all the pain flood your body,
and flow onto the ground wat do i do

seeing you like that makes me mad
makes me sad that someone could do that
but its your choice
i cant do anytthing to stop you though i try i may not suceed

im sorry that i let you do that to yourself
im sorry that this happened to you
i now it will NEVA happened again
ever or ever again

i miss you soo much
and even though i know its not my foult
but i cant help but think maybe it is
why did i let you do it?
why did i let you go and do it?

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 10:03:23 GMT

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
Maybe someday you’ll have woke up,
And, barely conscious, you’ll say to no one:
"isn’t something missing? "

You won’t cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me?

Even though I’d be sacrificed,
You won’t try for me, not now.
Though I’d die to know you love me,
I’m all alone.
Isn’t someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won’t be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
Shudder deep and cry out:
"isn’t something missing?
Isn’t someone missing me? "

And if I bleed, I’ll bleed,
Knowing you don’t care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
And wake without you there,
Isn’t something missing?
Isn’t something...

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 13:19:18 GMT

is your love the one i need?

can it help me?

sometimes it gets so lonely i cant stand but scream.

i know you can live without me,

i know you can live by me,

can see the blood drip from my cold cut hands and

live to the music.

why say things that arnt true?

Sat, 02 Jul 2005 09:41:36 GMT

why say things that arnt true?

why love when no one loves you?

why hide when you cant be seen?

living, dying its all the same.

can it be this thing we chose,

never aloud just missing in our souls?

WhY MuSt We LiVe?

Is It A ChOiCe?

...........

Are we incharge of how we feeL??

or is it a figger of our imagnation??

TrY to remember the pasT?

can you?........

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 13:32:38 GMT

You scored as Loner.

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Loner

94%

Drama nerd

63%

Stoner

63%

Geek

50%

Ghetto gangsta

50%

Punk/Rebel

44%

Goth

31%

Prep/Jock/Cheerleader

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Thu, 30 Jun 2005 13:10:50 GMT

You scored as Rocker, Mosher. Your A Rocker!

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Rocker, Mosher

85%

Goth

75%

Emo

55%

Skater

45%

Prepy

15%

Chav, Townie, Rude Boy, Ned, Kev

15%

Trendy

What Group Are You? Chav, Rocker, Skater, Emo, Goth, Trendy, Prepy E.c.t
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Fri, 24 Jun 2005 00:49:12 GMT

What Freak Musical Tragedy Will Befall YOU? by Lunapersephone
Name
What will have happened to You	piano chewed your fingers off
party responsible	Abba-loving drag queens
scene of the accident	stripper's dressing room
date of the accident	September 1, 2021
settlement	$34,764

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Fri, 24 Jun 2005 00:38:26 GMT

Who will be your rock star husband? by xpurple_popsiclex
Name/username
Your husband	Louie Stephens from Rooney
You will meet/fall in love at	a sewage plant
On	September 9, 2046
Kids (if you have any)	10
You will be together for	15 years

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i love u guys

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 05:42:39 GMT

hi there guyz
im sorry loui for everything i love u sooooooooo much that i cant explain ur still mi besty but i no that im not urs nomore, ur mi night in shinnin armour sweety your lyk a mummy to me n i cant live wid out choo babe mwa mwa mwa i love u sooo muchxoxoxoxox

claire i hav no idea wat i did to u but wateva it was im sorry for it , ur still mi friend even tho im not urs so yeh mwa xoxo

bonnie ur mi gorgus baby gurl i dont know wat i would be wid out chooo huni i love u with all mi hart dont eva change mwahmwah mwah xoxoxoxoxox

Wed, 18 May 2005 09:57:01 GMT

You are sad because of your grief

Why are you sad? [amazing pictures] For darker people
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sum thing

Wed, 18 May 2005 09:34:14 GMT

You are sad because of your grief

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pissed

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 10:41:15 GMT

ok now im pissed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
well i thought id start tha day with a happy i dont care wot no1 thinks of me ami but i guess i was wrong.
i just got on msn n dan says to me bitch, and im lyk oh ok wat did i do now?, and he is lyk aww go cry to bonnie , well i hav NO idea wat he was talkin bout but then i relised that i did say sumthing to bonnie but i wasent havin a cry, i just was a bit cut ok????is that ok???.
well maybe im just being a bit weired but i just thought that maybe she wouldent go n say that i was havin a cry to dan n yeh, n i lov her sooooo much a cant explain and i do trust her with all my heart and i always will.
but im kinda sad now so yeh can wait to see her tomorrow i missed her sooo much and yeh .
but i really wanted her to talk to atlee and dan but i think all she did was nufin n tell them that im cut, well as i said to her a little wile ago that i was at tha stage of killing dan (and sorda atlee), well i got out of that and i was goin to apolagise but now im not so shore but killing seems just as gud.
so this is cumin from tha 1 and only pissed ami
so yeh

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 10:52:46 GMT

You scored as overdose. most teens rely on this method of suicide...and you would be one of them...welcome to the club. You frequently think about suicide and your dreams are usually somewhat haunting...good luck in the future...that is, if there is one for you.

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overdose

79%

slit wrists

50%

slice neck

43%

stab yourself

29%

hang yourself

21%

what is your form of suicide?
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